Blessings in Disguise

This weekend has really opened my eyes to almost everything I've never notices before, and honestly I have no idea why. Over the past few months, as in March and April, I've noticed I've become really depressed, and really bummed about just about everything, and although the past year, I've made exceptional changes in my life, the past few months I fell back into who I was originally.

So, while driving to where ever I was going, most likely just to drive to get away from the caous at my house, I heard this song on the radio. I had to "shazam" it so I could look it up right away once I got home. Immediately I could relate to this song. This past weekend I've been able to become the person I've always wanted to be. I've been awaken from this dark sleep and realized all the things I've lost in the past month in a half. And I've come to realize that changes need to start in myself. I need to experience change in myself as a person and be able to accept the person I am to allow anyone in my life able to accept the person I am.

First, I'd like to apologize to all those I've hurt, through the dark times. My family, close friends and someone rather important. But also God. I had lost that connection because of the stress and consumption of everything in my life, that it began taking over. I've been able to fully recognize this and I hope others can too. This time, especially during the Easter season is a great time to figure out who I am. Not only did God send is only Son to die and suffer for all of us, but much like the song says, some of the pain and suffering we do experience though this life could be a blessing in disguise. God working though his creative and mysterious ways to show you something you've been missing for so often. I hope you, any one, take the time to listen to the song. It really explains even through pain and suffering, God is always there and teaching you through mistakes, not regrets but mistakes. Regrets are unable to be changed and end up just being dwelled upon, while mistakes are learned from and changed. I've made a few mistakes in my life, and I'm learning from them first hand. And I hope that the people who mean the most to me can see these changes I'm trying to make, it's going to take time, but I'm working on it. Day by day, moment by moment. Living in the now, not dwelling on the past and not searching for the future but living for today.